🌸🌌💐🌼⭐🌙I’m back!🌸🌌💐🌼⭐🌙1
Hi! How are you? Long time no see!! I’ll get right into it-
After writing a few newsletters, I let it slowly fade into oblivion. I didn’t mean to neglect it- but life got busy, as it often does; I suppose. So here I am, knocking on your inbox’s door after a few months, hoping you’ll still want to read what I have to say!
Firstly, I think it was unrealistic to try and send out a new newsletter every week. From now on, I want to commit to at least bi-weekly; but I’m going to try to do once a week for a few weeks from now.
This newsletter is just a little update on me and the goings-on in my life! I’m officially, finally, thankfully, on summer break! Spring and summer semester were stressful, to say the least, which is the top reason I halted sending these out and had a spotty Instagram presence.
In May, I announced that I’ve been writing a poetry collection that’s going to be published this summer! I haven’t said too much else about it yet, but rest assured it’s going to be all I talk about soon! I will say, though, that this poetry collection is very close to my heart. I finished the first draft a year ago now. This book helped me grow, this book grew with me. I poured my heart and tears and soul into this collection of poetry, I’ve agonized over every word, every comma, every stanza.
Lately, I’ve been unbelievably excited about publication, as well as outrageously nervous. Vulnerability in my writing hasn’t been a major issue for a while, but lately I’ve been struggling with it. Which might seem silly, seeing as I perpetually overshare on the internet.
Real people currently read my poetry, and more real people will soon hold a book of my poetry in their hands: this reality has begin to weigh on me. I’m excited, of course, and so happy that so many people read my writing. It never fails to astound me, and I couldn’t feel luckier. But it is scary, and I hadn’t thought of how scary is really is for a while.
It is frightening to be perceived. It is frightening to say- here I am- despicably human. Angry, sad, grieving, loving, confused, nostalgic; here and standing. It’s scary, but it’s worth it.
That’s about it for today! Anticipate announcements on my book soon, as well as a consistent Instagram presence! As always, DM me to talk about anything I said in today’s newsletter or otherwise! Thank you for being here! <3
-nia mahmud